A mist in the dark night,
A dream scattered as the moon shines
The howls from far and beyond
the mind lost along with the time
Is the mind playing game with me,
Or am I being buried in the dark woodland
or are these my memories crying
while I sink in the past sand
This past sand, feels so heavy and cold,
Signifying as if I am trapped, alone.
Sometimes I hear my own crying
echoing inside my tombstone
Echoing I hear, seems of my death,
Or am I still breathing, alive?
Pleading yet another chance to shine in sunlight
and then the walls almost closed up on me,
you could even hear the silence of death
The silence, I want to run from,
The silence, I never want to feel again
The silence, wishing it was just another nightmare,
With the feeling of a grave night,
Walking me towards the cries, howling, darkness,
That I never want to hear or feel
for I've lost all my energy
fighting the emptiness within,
lost time lost soul lost myself
and a lifetime lost within the sinking ship
Far sight I see myself,
Drowning, as if crying for help
Running, as if I can't feel my breath,
Turning my head, as if, to call out to someone,
Will I ever be rescued by anyone?
But, I just see myself in a death trap
I scream but not a soul to listen,
and cry yet no shoulder to lean
to stop my eyes from closing
not even a knock on my coffin
Shattered as I lean on my knees,
Catching my head to stop these misbelieve,
But goes on continuing,
Making harder to focus on what's reality
Sure there are skeletons around me
some friends some family they say,
I hear their hearts beat yet
I find myself standing alone
Facing myself like a card of ace,
Either I am above the king or joked as one,
Facing a reality of the deck,
Either my symbol is different or their color changes
surrounded by magicians am I?
just being played around
snapped upon, make me vanish
or is it all just in my mind
a magical dream all of it
No, it's not a dream,
No it's not a nightmare,
But, they were my delusions.
Relieved of the sweat and anxiety, after taking my pills.
Who would've thought schizophrenia can be this harmful?
Such instability between reality and delusions.
Can I ever be cured of?